Thursday, May 29, 2008

regrets

I graduated from residency last Dec. 2005. Instead of taking the diplomate boards in March, I decided to skip it and take it in November. Reasons: 1.) I wasn't ready 2.) I was tired 3.) I was scared. Normally, others would start putting up their practice right after graduation and start their review in the process. Me, being the coward that I am, flew to the US and took a 3-month breather from everything. Fellowship wasn't an option at that time. I did have thoughts of going into Neonatology before, but probably because I was brainwashed by people telling me that putting up a practice in the province is so easy, that you didn't need to become a subspecialist, I ditched the idea, eventhough most of my consultants and seniors urged me to go through with it. Oh well, me again, being the fool that I am, decided not to go into fellowship and now, two and a half years later, here I am, a general Pediatrician. My practice is barely thriving. I see 2-3 pateints in a week. My consultation fee is two hundred pesos. I pay for utilities and clinic rent each month. I hardly get by.

I should have gone into fellowship. Sayang.